jealous

i caught a cold on monday night, so all day tuesday i was sneezing and producing my own version of "wontons" (ingredients: kleenex + runny nose stuff). this week was not so busy at work - but i knew next week (when this whole trucker strike thing gets resolved), things will be hectic. so i decided to get some extra rest and come to work late on wednesday.

it felt good to get 10 hours of sleep (i needed it too). i woke up at 10am and didn't need to leave for work for another hour. so for the first time in a month, i had a chance to have an undisturbed, unrushed quiet time with the Lord. i've missed doing this in the busyness of my holiday to hk/china and my many summer plans. i'm glad i finally had a chance for a quality quiet time.

so i went to work on wednesday. now there's this weird work culture at my company. whenever someone comes to work, but is sick, they will wear a "sars" mask to reduce the likelihood of getting other co-workers sick. now i originally thought this was a stupid idea. so the last few times i've been sick at work, i didn't wear one of these silly masks - and i got other people sick (i felt bad - but it was their own fault for coming too close to me).

anyways - when i went to work this wednesday, i did end up wearing one of these sars masks - partly from an unspoken pressure i felt around me, and partly because i genuinely didn't want to get my co-workers sick. but i felt stupid wearing that thing.

so thursday morning, after another 10 hours of good sleep, i don't feel any better. in fact, a bit worse. so i decided to take the day off. and so i had the luxury to have another quality devotion time. now what's interesting is that both yesterday & today's devotions were about God's Word - the life and nourishment it brings. it's very timely, considering i haven't had much spiritual food for the past month.

then the thought came into my head - did God allow me to become sick so i would spend time with Him? no, that sounds so petty, like something a jealous person would do...

God wouldn't do something like that?
would He?

jeal-ous
adj.
Fearful or wary of being supplanted; apprehensive of losing affection or position.

"Do not worship any other god, for the LORD, whose name is Jealous, is a jealous God."
~Exodus 34:14~

"let me know You'd fight thousands for my love"
-bethany dillon, from "for my love"-